Last weekend was an all time low for me. Already feeling the pressure of college, feeling like my output isn’t high enough and that deadlines aren’t going to be met, I lose the two rolls of film that I intended to use for my Visual Communication assignment.
I say ‘lost’ but unfortunately I knew where they were; poorly developed and fairly mangled in the processing room due to a problem with my camera and with me messing with them on the film processing reel. At this stage of the course (only at the end of Semester One I realise) it was a disaster! I know I caught some great images on the film too due to unforeseen circumstances. Ironic that they were lost in the same way.
A fly in the ointment indeed.
It’s happened to most of us in the class but it is a critical time at the moment and I have been struggling with work/college time pressures notwithstanding this set back. Those that were around me in the darkroom, busy with their own pressures were as ever, very sympathetic. I’ve a great bunch of class mates it has to be said. After the film loss, I couldn’t face the darkroom the next day. More lost time! Still, I shot another roll of film, albeit on a day with very poor light and started a written exercise I have to complete. I can’t look back and say I wasted the day I know. I’ve taken tomorrow and the next day off work, though I won’t have darkroom access.
The only thing I can do it keep on keepin’ on!
A ‘new week of little victories?’ someone said to me this morning. I sure hope so. I feel like I have a mountain to climb with a ticking clock in my ear.